OHMYCRAPPINGGODDESS.

Why is this happening to me?????? These THINGS NEVER happen to ME(!!!) of all people.

Do you know the feeling of being curious about wanting to try something out?

Then it semi-quasi-pseudo happens?

And you want ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do with it anymore?

StIcKy, this situation is, but I'll wait it out.

...Wait two years. Until after graduation.

Or I could leave the country as early as now...?

I have to get out. Have to get out.

Jesus Christ. I want to get back to my old schedule. My old self. I want to go as far back as high school when I was Invisible Girl. Now, I'm treading on unknown territory. I don't want to screw it up.

OMIGOD. Ramble ramble ramble. Please, don't try making any sense out of this.

OMIGOD. I just need to express what I feel without giving away too much because certain information will DESTROY ME.

God, this better be a dream. I should wake up any minute now. Any minute. Any minute now.

Crap.

Dammit. Why do I always have to act so nice?

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I finally downloaded the song!!! Thanks Char!